What Is It Like? Paranoid Schizophrenia

To Hear: I hear voices in my head, not my own but inside me and they may be friendly or not.

What to listen to: Sometimes, actually, all the time I have no choice but to hear them out...except in the times of evil voices I can usually get them to go away with showing my fingers as a cross and stating "I believe in Jesus Christ."

To see: There has been an occasion that I had seen about 500 orbs in my room--different colors...Another occasion I thought the writer's strike in California concerned me in Maine. I went for a walk/jog downtown Portland in the fog to find 100 writers with black clip boards and dressed in black (like Men in Black) and watching me throughout the town...

To feel: Before I came down with schizophrenia and psychosis I didn't feel much--I was numb. Schizophrenia made my emotions alive and I believe I have felt every emotion! (In other words--I am definitely not a psychopath!)

To touch (like to feel): I have felt hallucinations! I, on a few occasions, felt "psychic spiders" crawling all over my chest. I reacted but nothing was there.

Side note: Just like an athlete has different attributes, strengths, and variables--a mentally ill person has different attributes as well as its peer.

What I want: Peacefulness... and it may come with finally being taken care of in a loving and appreciative manner.